Theres something I’ve wanted to write about for almost a week now.
It seems in the departmental staff meeting at my school, the chair announced that I got into my PhD program. I was approached by the coordinator of the Soc program on Tuesday, who asked me questions about the program, when I start, how long it will take me, etc.
She was wondering about my follow up plans, to which I responded I didn’t think I would be able to stay in Maryland, because there are so many higher degrees in the state. She started talking about ways of keeping me here , as far as contacts, and meeting people.
She then went on to talk about how the department wouldn’t hire me probably because my PhD is interdisciplinary, and the Sociology program requires a PhD in a discipline but “we could see what we would do”. I talked about how I assumed I couldn’t stay in Maryland, much less Towson, but she said “don’t just give up. We’d want to keep you here if we can”.
The conversation struck me on many levels:
a) First, just because it makes this foray to get a PhD even more real. I mean, I’m ready, and I want it, but this is big.
b) Second, it left me wondering if she was just being nice. I tend to think not, as she’s somewhat socially awkward (as a lot of profs are), so she could have said a lot less.
c) Third, her idea of me staying at Towson. I honestly never considered it. A year ago, I was pretty sure my PhD program would take me out of the state, but here I stay. So, I guess anything can happen.
d) Fourth, the desire to keep me. I do consider myself pretty talented in my field, not to be egotistical, but…I don’t know. It almost seems like one reason to keep me is because what I bring to the department demographically (there are no other black sociologists on full time staff, and in a state with one of the largest Black populations, that’s pretty glaring)
I’m honored, and happy to have the conversation, but I feel like “too soon”! I am at the very least 4 years away from even a hint of this – let me get through most of the 10 courses I need to take, and then let’s talk.